Shield of Love!


This parenting gig was never meant to be easy! There is always something to worry or stress about when it comes to the health and well being of your child! And then when things do seem settled, you start to let your mind relax and BAM something else happens!!!

I really feel terribly sad for my children. They were born into this world happy, healthy little bubbas with not a care in the world and the hardest decision they had to make was do I feed for 5, 10, 15 or 20 minutes??? Then they started teething and their ears have taken a pounding since! Bailey, who is 7 in February, is still having ear problems and is looking down the barrel of a fourth set of grommets! Over the last few months, between the three of the them, they have had 5 ear infections! This not only brings sad unwell kiddies, but also angry and frustrated little beggers!

Because I’ve had three children to suffer chronic middle ear infections, for the past 6 and a half years I’ve dealt with so many tantrums and meltdowns from children who have just been feeling terrible! At the time of a meltdown or inappropriate behaviour my heart breaks for the fact that being little and feeling pain and discomfort contributes to the loss of self-control and not thinking straight, but the hard side of me puts up my shield and follows through with a consequence! I call my shield the ‘Shield of Love’! I know by putting up my shield, the kids will be better people in the long run!

If I used their sickness as an excuse every time they were naughty, I would end up with rude, disrespectful, out of control children who wouldn’t be very well liked! Each time I have to be the bad cop I tell myself I will thank myself later as I’m teaching my children right from wrong! Of course it would be easier to let things go, but children are so smart and if you let that shield down once they will expect that the next time and the time after that! My theory is as parents we are not meant to be their friends. We are their role models to guide them through life and to assist them in being the best they can be! If we get along really well in the process that is awesome, but if there are times we butt heads then we have to stand up and be the parent and guide them in understanding right from wrong!

This week has been such a tough week with Bailey! He had a tooth removed on Monday and by Wednesday he had six ulcers in the side of his mouth from where he had bitten his gum when it was numb! He has been so miserable and has displayed every emotion possible! My heart breaks when I see my children in pain and if I could I would take it from them. I’ve said on several occasions to my son this week…”we know you are in pain, but that doesn’t excuse your behaviour!” So the shield of love has been used a lot this week! It’s times like this I want to throw the damn shield away, but my biggest thing with all my children at the moment is dealing with their emotions and expressing them sensibly and appropriately!

So while my kidlets are still young and learning the rights and wrongs in life I will continue to use my shield of love. There will be a day when they are older and will appreciate why I’ve used it. I already appreciate that I’ve used it as I see my hard work paying off, especially when they are at school:)!


Outdoor Facelift!

My love of decorating never leaves from year to year, but it does come in waves! In the past 10 years of living in our home I have lost count of the number of of times I’ve bought new cushions to brighten a room up or changed the colour scheme of our bedding. I usually start with one room and go from room to room which takes a while and then by the time I’m back to the beginning, it’s been a few years and I’m ready to start all over again! But as they say a change is as good as a holiday!

The past 6 months I have been decorating a fair bit. It started with our bedroom, then the toy room, bits and pieces in all the other rooms but at this time of the year and leading into the festive season, I feel the outside is just as deserving of a facelift as the inside! We have a huge outside that is just as big as the inside of our house! When tidying up and giving the outside a facelift I always start with the pergola. Our pergola is screen enclosed so we treat it as another room.

In the past it was an open pergola with exposed concrete. About 5 years ago now, we screen enclosed it to make it our ‘entertainment room’ and had the ground covercreted to create a tile look! It was the best thing we did! We also added a nice big sail out the back so we still have an ‘outdoor’ shaded area where we often have afternoon tea or the occasional dinner on a hot night!

This week I was sick of looking at my faded cushions and covers on my outdoor lounge, so to create a fresh look, I purchased some cushions from Big W and Ikea and turned the seat covers inside out so they now look brand new! My very talented mother made the covers and I was going to buy more material so she could make new ones, but now I’ll have at least another couple of years up my sleeve before that has to be done again!

Cushions and seat covers before…..



I’m so happy with how it turned out! I love the leaf pattern on the cushions, as soon as I saw them I thought they would look great for an outside cushion and the red makes the area look vibrant and matches in perfect with the decor and my rose garden in the background!

We have big plans for our outside, but all in good timing! Our biggest plan is to eventually put a pool in! In a couple of months time to celebrate living in our home for 10 years, I will be writing a blog called ‘Before and After – 10 Years On’ which will illustrate how much we’ve done to our home over the past 10 years!

I’ve Been Tattooed!!!

After many years of wanting one, procrastinating about what to get and where to put it, I finally got my first tattoo! Right now I know half of you will be saying really? And the other half of you will be saying cool! With my mother saying you’re a fool lol! But it’s done now and there is no turning back!

Of course initially when wanting a tattoo I always focused more on how much it was going to hurt rather than the final product! Then there has always been the biggest issue of what to get and where to get it! I know I always wanted my children’s names. I always wanted a frangipani, but the position well let’s just say that I have procrastinated over the most!

Four years ago Kane booked me in to get a tattoo for Christmas but because I was breastfeeding Sienna at the time, they wouldn’t do it in case of infection….well in the mean time I’ve had another baby breast fed her for 15 months which has taken me to where I am now finally getting what I want! No more excuses, no more babies so everything was set!

A few months ago I found a saying on Facebook from Quotes central and the minute I read it I knew that is what I wanted etched into my skin for the rest of my life! I changed the wording a bit but the concept stayed the same.


After knowing that I wanted the above saying, with my children’s names and some frangipanies the position was the last thing to decide! I ended up going with my thigh as what do I love doing…running and that’s the part of my body that is worked thoroughly when I run! I also wanted it in a position where it can be covered for work and essentially it is something that I wanted to do and I’m happy that I am the one who mostly gets to see it!

I think the biggest decision in all of this is where to get it done! It’s not like getting a hair cut or your nails done where those things can grow back…this is something forever!! After returning back from school holidays I was chatting to one of my lovely teacher aides who said she got a tattoo over the holidays. Well by the end of the day I had designed my tattoo and was booked in for two weeks time. I was happy and content to go with someone who was highly recommended….plus seeing 11 tattoos he had done on my friend I was impressed!

Leading up to today I was not nervous, scared or anxious at all, I was only excited! I kept saying to my husband…I can’t believe I am finally getting a tattoo!! I didn’t tell anyone – well maybe one of my besties but I had to tell someone!!! I got there early (I know shocking lol) to find out the guy who was suppose to do it didn’t work on Sundays anymore!!! Not off to a good start. And then they didn’t take EFTPOS so I had to go and get money out. By this point I was a bit nervous and thought do I go ahead with it??

My lovely friend from work was always coming and she reassured me that this guy was good too. I went with my gut feeling and did it. I was there and wasn’t going anywhere until I had my tattoo done! I was so proud of myself. I was calm the whole time and didn’t flinch once! That first moment when he was about to put the needle on my skin was a bit overwhelming but it didn’t hurt anywhere near like I thought it would have! It was more annoying than anything.

This is the sequence of events:

Stencil on my leg all ready to go….bit nervous by this stage!

No turning back now….pain was minimal and so bearable!

Coming along nicely!

Most annoying bit to go – the shading!

The finished product…love it!! The stinging had just started though!

Close up all cleaned and stinging subsided:)

I’m so so happy with the end result! This tattoo means a lot to me…when I became a mum it changed my life forever and I will fight everyday to be here for my babies for as long as I can!

Well I’ve done it! I’ve finally taken the plunge to do something I’ve wanted to do for a long time but hesitated so much! I’m addicted now! I’ve already picked out two more to add to my one collection….three will be enough though…for now lol! Only kidding mum:)


After a long (but lovely fashion wise) winter, the warmer weather is starting to greet us so what better way to sort through our existing summer wardrobe and stock up on what we need! I’m in the middle of compiling stuff for my summer fashion blog so keep an eye out in the coming weeks!

The point of this fashion blog is to promote Coles’ range of clothing called ‘Mix’! I originally came across the Mix brand about a year ago when it was being introduced at our local Pick and Pay! One of the first things I bought was a running outfit (I know shocking lol)! Since then I’ve bought a heap of different things from pants, jackets, to casual tops and shorts! So far I have never been disappointed by their quality (they wash really well) and the best bit their prices are awesome!

Last week I picked up 4 singlet tops that were $6 each or 2 for $9, a pair of tailored black shorts for $19 and a beautiful pair of earrings for $10….6 things for under $50 I was happy with that!


The most exciting thing about this range is that they have bought out babies, kids and men’s clothing! Again the quality is awesome and the prices are fantastic! I would definitely recommend if you are ever at Sunnybank Hills Shopping Centre check out the Mix range of clothing situated upstairs at Coles (the old Pick and Pay)!

It’s Hard To Let Go!

Today I finished sorting the last bedroom in our house – my baby girl’s room! As I placed each item of clothing in a pile that is too tiny for her now, I felt sick, sad, depressed that no baby of mine will wear those clothes again:(……I thought I was ok about moving forward but quite clearly I’m not!

In the past month Mia has gone from a baby toddler to a big girl toddler and as she discovers a new trick and speaks a new word or phrase, it reminds me more and more of how my days as a mother of a baby are slowly dwindling! A couple of months back I wrote a blog on ‘Knowing When You’re Complete’, I know in my heart (literally) we won’t be having anymore children but that doesn’t mean I’m at peace with this (like I thought I was)!

I’m really bad at the moment and can’t even bring myself to look through the kids baby photos! What’s wrong with me…I’m an emotional basket case!!!! Their baby photos bring back such powerful (and the best) memories just like they were yesterday! I still remember the minute each of them were born and placed on my chest, the instant bond that no one could come between. The baby smell oh how I loved thee, to the point I could have eaten their little cheeks off lol! The precious moments of breast feeding, having them smile and laugh at me for the first time and all the other special milestones that our babies reach! No wonder letting go is so damn hard!

As I see a pregnant women or a newborn baby I smile with happiness for them, but behind my smile are tears of sorrow. 6 months ago if you asked me am I done, I would of said hell yeah!! Mia was such a difficult baby and for a long time put me off having anymore. But now my sweet little pea is content and happy, it has shadowed all the hard times. Someone at work asked me yesterday am I done, this time my response was unfortunately:(

I would love a 4th baby to even our family up, but my life’s path decided it wasn’t meant to be the day I found out about my heart! I probably may not have had a fourth anyway, but there are times like now that the fact the decision has been taken out of my control makes me feel mixed emotions! I’ve loved having babies, it’s been the absolute best time of my life so far….but OMG how fast has it gone!!! After writing a piece last week about our wedding day 8 years ago and now we have 3 adorable children in toe….please time SLOW DOWN!!!!

I know I need to get over myself and move forward and I will. I don’t know what it is but it’s just not sitting right with me at the moment! Yes I feel blessed with my 3 beautiful babies and yes I’ve worked hard to regain the old me back and yes if I had a fourth their ears would be disastrous like their brother and sister’s, but I think no matter how I look at the situation I would always want another one if it was my 4th, 5th or 6th….because having babies is something I love and was meant to do which is why I’m finding it hard to let go!

I’m just so glad that I’ve cherished each moment through a photo, video or piece of clothing. Because it’s these memories that will always keep my ‘baby days’ alive for me….these are some of those special memories and things that I will never part with:
Our first photo as a family!

Mother and son:)

Bailey meeting his sister for the first time…this photo brings tears to my eyes every time!

I couldn’t believe my eyes when we saw the number on the scales….10 pound 2!!!


This photo of Mia still spins me out!

Love this photo:)

My miracle baby who saved my life!

And then there were three:)

I feel so blessed I have my party of 5!

Mia at 6 months….my favourite baby age!

Bailey’s outfit he wore when he left the hospital!

Kane bought this sleeping bag for Sienna from the Mater fundraiser.

One of the many beautiful wraps mum made for Sienna which Mia also used!

Bailey’s dummy holder he wore to bed!

One of many hand knits that I wore when I was a baby and my daughters have been able to wear!

That’s how all my babies started….helps when their aunty is one:)

This is the box where all the things I just can’t part with will live….I’ve also got Bailey’s first dummy, I kept a spare newborn nappy to show the kids when they are older how tiny they were. I’ve also kept their hospital bracelets, name cards and clamp from their bellybutton ….I know I’m a freak!!!! Lol!

I know I have so much more to look forward to as each of my children grow and develop….but there just isn’t anything quite as beautiful than a snuggle with your newborn….but I do think snuggling with any of my babies no matter how old they are sure is just as precious!


Spring Holiday Highlights!

My goodness this year has flown, a week has already passed since the school holidays and before we know it we will be time to farewell another school year!

The September school holidays are usually my favourite for the year. The weather is normally pleasant which leaves plenty of opportunity to do a variety of activities. These holidays proved to be a little more challenging as I spent most of the time on my own as my husband either worked really long hours or was away! But we managed to do lots of fun things and create beautiful memories that we’ll cherish forever!

This is what we got up to:

A play at Chipmunks




A trip to town on the train


Goma & Museum



















Bike riding to the park




Playing it cool











Swimming lessons















Swim at Nanny and Poppy’s




As you can see we had lots of fun! This mumma was sure buggered by the end of it, but considering we were so busy, I was the most rested I’d felt in a log time and when I returned back to work this week I was actually ready to go back….now that is definitely a first lol!

10 Week Challenge!


Another blog about cleaning! I know. It’s not for everyone and you maybe thinking blah blah blah, but the reality of it is no matter how clean we think we are, there are parts of our homes that get so dirty it’s scary to think we breathe in the filth that manifests upon our windows, blinds and the like! Next time you do your house work, look closely at your windows, the tracks of them, the oven, your screen door and walls!!! And don’t get me started on the outside!!! And now is as good as time as any as we are fast approaching the festive season!

I hadn’t done a proper house clean since just before the school holidays started. I couldn’t bring myself to look at my home for another second until my house work was complete! For me my ‘house work’ consists of dusting, vacuuming, mopping, cleaning the toilet, bathroom, kitchen thoroughly, wiping down windows, mirrors and sweeping outside front and back! I like to do it once a week and I never leave it go more than a fortnight.

While cleaning away yesterday I started seeing things that needed extra attention. I started my ‘spring cleaning’ a couple of weeks ago and you know about my ‘to do list’ before Christmas, I figured if I worked on one of the jobs off my list each house work day, one – I’d only be spending one day a week cleaning, two – 10 weeks is a realistic time to get it all done and three – it means I have 4 other days in the week to enjoy my lovely family!

Yesterday I cleaned beside my fridge (I keep my recycle bags there and it was all dusty, I vacuumed the kids timber blinds and started sorting out my pergola! I pottered around from 6.30 in the morning until 12.30 when the kids and I had lunch! Obviously going for my 5.30 run paved the way for me to have lots of energy! I did enjoy my hour of sitting down though:) I could go around every inch of my home and add to my already to do list what needs to be cleaned and organised, but the list would end up so long and daunting that I know it wouldn’t all get done. The things on my list MUST be done over the next 10 weeks, other stuff is a complete bonus!

So from this week, I am setting myself a 10 week challenge to get our house to an organised clean state, just in time for Christmas! I encourage my readers to try and do the same:)

1. Make a list of what you definitely want done in the next 10 weeks.

2. Set aside one day a week to do jobs from the list…for me it will be my house work day so I’m only dedicating one day to cleaning!

3. Do things as you see it! If you see something that looks like it needs attention and you have a spare 5-10 minutes just do it!

4. Once you’ve organised a cupboard or area, make sure it stays that way by consistently putting things back in its place (setting some rules for your loved ones may have to come into play here lol).

5. Be brutal and realistic! When sorting through stuff ask yourself how long since I used you? If it’s been more than a year than you don’t need it!

6. If you have children get them involved especially when it comes to their toys and bedroom!

7. Get your husband involved to. Mine is in charge of the Gurney!!!

8. Don’t stress if you miss a week, do extra the following week.

9. As you ‘spring clean’ write the job you did down which will help you create a ‘spring cleaning’ list that you can repeat each year!

10. When you’re finished be proud of the home you’ve created!

Good luck and keep me posted!

I’ll check back in 10 weeks time so I can catch you up with how it panned out for me!


A Day to Remember!

8 years ago today I married my best friend, my lover and the man that would one day become the father of my children! We had been together for 7 years and like most females, I’d been dreaming about this day since I was a little girl and what a beautiful day to always remember on this date!


I still remember that day like it was yesterday. The butterflies in my stomach as I approached my soon to be husband, my beautiful dress and how I felt like a princess and the happiness that filled my heart as I married my prince, my one true love!


It was a beautiful hot sunny day that day and like true wedding style, we had a few dramas leading up to the big day, but the actual day couldn’t have been any better! In front of 150 family and friends, Kane and I declared our love for one another in a traditional style church wedding…our children have since been christened there:)


Once the nuptials were completed, we headed over to the Roma Street Parklands, where our photographer captured some beautiful moments that we will cherish forever!


Having a large bridal party that consisted of siblings and friends, paved way to have loads of fun…many laughs were shared that day as well as tears of joy (mostly by Tash lol)!


Our reception was at the Paloma located at Sunnybank. We chose somewhere that would cater to the volume of people and central to where everyone was traveling from. Between having a delicious array of food, beverages and dance floor to kick off our shoes, the reception was our party to celebrate our love and unity and of course what better way than the groom doing a strip tease to the ‘Grease’ remix song lol!


We had been engaged for 18 months, which allowed plenty of time to organise the wedding day of our dreams…but like anything we had a budget to stick towards and although we could have had less people at a more extravagant venue, we chose to have the people we cherished the most. The day was all about us and the fact that we were two people becoming one. It was pink, girly, bright, florally which is all things me and the boys wore plain but handsome suits which is all things Kane! I still to this day love what I created (with the help of my one and only mumma) and to me our wedding day will always be the best!






To me getting married is more than a piece of paper, I take it seriously and the vowels we declared in front of our friends and family are ones our relationship faces everyday….”in sickness and in health, from richer to poorer, through good times and bad, till death do us part!”


I love you Kane Trew…happy 8 year wedding anniversary! Thank you for the times we have shared thus far. I’m so proud of what we have created and love you and our babies more than life itself:) And what better way to spend it than with my party of 5!


Two Becomes One!

Well the school holidays have come to an end and what a busy one it was. Between being on my own for the majority of it and trying to keep three kids under 6 entertained at a level where all their interests were catered for, proved to be quite manageable but meant my ‘to do list’ wasn’t completely done!

I am happy to say that quite a bit was done and things that weren’t even on the list were achieved as well. It’s funny how we reach spring and suddenly we go into damage control and have this sudden urge for everything to be clean enough to eat food off. I guess the cycle is have fun in the summer, hibernate in the winter and then clean madly before the festive and fun season arrives again! And that is what I did! I cleaned windows, walls, my oven, sorted through our clothes and tackled the tupperware cupboard! I only have two rooms in the house left to organise, a bit of work outside and then finally after 10 years of living in our home I will feel the most organised I’ve been in this house!

Some people would be shocked that my house would be unorganised….yes I admit that I have a neat freak disorder lol, but there is a huge difference between being neat and organised!!! I guess somewhere between moving in all those years ago and having three kids, things built up and up to the point where I couldn’t stand it any longer! And I finally have taught myself to be brutal! I hoard too much stuff but as I’m getting older, I’m evolving and realising exactly what I want and being able to differentiate between needing and wanting is a must skill to have in an organised home!

Now that I will have one child back in school five days a week, it leaves me with my two girls and 10 weeks of three days a week to get my butt into gear!!! My original ‘to do list’ had jobs added to it that I wanted to get done by Christmas, so I decided to create a new ‘to do list’ – therefore two lists became one – which I am determined to go like a crazy lady to get it all done by the end of the year!


Welcome to my Zoo!


“Mum, Sienna hit me in the face!” “Yeah well you pushed me in my stomach!”
“I’m sitting next to Mia!” “No I am!” “I want to pour my milk!” “No Sienna you’re too little!” “Mum Bailey’s being mean to me, he said I was little!”

And this all before 7am!!!!!!

Do you ever feel like your living in a zoo? Play fighting, constant hands on each other, verbal cheap shots and shout outs and squabbling over who sits where or who is going to have the yellow cup!!! Omg some days it just feels like I’m living in a zoo and my children are the animals and I’m the zoo keeper trying to create some peace and harmony amongst the flock! Don’t get me wrong I am not calling my children animals but when left alone to entertain themselves, when god forbid I need to go to the toilet or something, it can end up in a state that is not pretty!

I love school holidays! Being a teacher it’s my turn to have a break from my job, life is so much more relaxed and it’s so nice not to have to rush all the time! I don’t know about anyone else but as much as I love my children I’m ready to pack their school bags and get out the uniform ready for school next Monday! We have done so much yet the “why aren’t we doing anything today?” attitude still appears!!! Between play dates, trip on the train to town, baking, colouring, swimming and the like they can’t say they haven’t had a good holiday!

Individually each of my children are divine (most of the time lol), add two together especially the baby and the older child and it’s mostly heaven, but add the two older ones together and I have my work cut out for me! Then add my two nephews and that makes five children from 19 months to 12 years and there is everything other than peace lol! Why? Why do they like upsetting each other or inflicting pain on each other? They are awesome out in public and as soon as we get in the car to go home they are at each other’s throats….talk about trying to establish the king of the food chain!

This morning I was having a couple of girlfriends over and their children for morning tea….they rocked up Mia and I in pjs still, I was in middle of picking dog poo up so kids could play, Sienna kept tormenting Bailey, I was being asked questions left right and centre “mum” this, “aunty Nat” that….all this on very little sleep….but there was plenty of food I’d baked lol!

But it’s not always like this in fact the majority of the time it’s quite pleasant and fun…the school holidays just add a new dimension! There have been so many times where my two eldest have played so lovely together and I stop, watch and relish in those moments! I gazed in contentment today when I watched my 5 children (3 I birthed and my 2 nephews) were all sitting together laughing and chatting nicely on the lounge! It can happen and those are the moments you sit back and say….this is why I love being a mum!

You go through moments where you think “just shut up!” or you long for some peace and quiet and then you get some time to yourself and I don’t know about you but any longer than a couple of hours and I need my children’s arms hanging around my neck again! So my house may seem like a zoo sometimes, but I wouldn’t change any of it for the world….or maybe I would – stop fighting!!!!! Mummy loves you:) lol.

Love my crazy cats more than life itself!!!